On Being Alone

There is such a depressing feel if you're eating breakfast alone in a fast food on a cold and wet friday morning. Yet at the same time, there is peacefulness in that solitude. I have always been comfortable being alone. Though not usually surrounded by a bunch of people, i believe i am not lacking the required social skills to be considered as an antisocial. No doubt i enjoy the company of my friends but i am also comfortable being on my own once in a while.

If being a loner means window shopping alone, or eating out all by yourself or doing those solitary jogs very early in the morning, then i submit to being one. But what makes it different for me is that I enjoy those moments alone, and not because i don't have a choice.

Yes, at times I feel pathetic. But these moments of solitude is an opportunity for me to see things in a clearer and unobstructed view of life, without the clutter from other people's opinion. I have learned to appreciate the mundane things surrounding me and i have strengthened my relationship with God for these moments are spent being with him, talking to him and simply thanking him for what I have become. My solitude has been a great way for me to be a better person. I am able to assess myself and at the same time, understand other people by simply observing them.

I doubt if I can dig this deeper when I am with another person.

Understanding one's self and that of others, comes only by listening, not only through your ears, but also through your heart. And it can only be done by spending some time alone and getting to know yourself more better.

In my case, loners arent that pathetic after all.

Pug in my blog

I came upon a site which sells a copy of artworks done by famous and not so famous, but just as great, artists. I particularly find this one adorable. I am a big fan of Art. Not a connoisseur though, nor pretending to be one. For me, the appreciation of art in its general sense does not necessarily require you to know who were the masters behind it. If I like it, then its art for me regardless of who the artist is.
This one caught my fancy since i'm planning on buying a dog in the future, specifically a Pug. While we were in Diliman, my friend bought a Pug for her father and I completely loved the breed after i held one. They look like they ran into a wall while doing 250 mph, and ended up with a flattened snout.
Being Ugly has never been this Cute.

Valentines Day is SAD!

I just finished my first week of job training. It was interesting considering that this would officially be my first employment. We spent the whole week trying to familiarize ourselves with our tasks. I get to write most of the time, which is good since I'm much more comfortable with it. I think i'm getting the hang of what I am supposed to do.
The rest of the weekend was purely TV marathon. I never go out these past few weeks. I was really expecting that id have more time socializing now that I'm through with school... oh well.
And Vday is fast approaching...i dont know what it is about valentine's day that makes one very conscious of his/her single status. Yes love is definitely in the air. And i am outside looking in.
Amihan told me that Valentines Day is SAD...SAD for Single Awareness Day. There is definitely a high level of awareness of one's lack of partner once February sets in.
I admit, i'm starting to dread the 14th not because i don't have anybody to spend it with but because I still get THE look when people would ask me who my date would be and I would tell them "wala ako date". Even my mom would give me THE look. Talk about being pathetic.
I have never really celebrated Valentines with a guy. I'd usually go out for dinner with my other single girl friends and just hang around the city, not because we would be on the hunt for other single guys, but because everyone's usually in a mood to go out and have fun.
But now that my friends aren't here, I would probably be spending it at the office since i'm on a night shift. Which is good since I would be detaching myself from the amorous world. Yes, a pity.

Chef Lucy

I've been lounging around the house since the bar exams, and with nothing to do but sleep and sit in front of the TV, i've re-discovered my culinary abilities after more than 6 months of not cooking. My family has been eating gourmet ever since. Okay, so not gourmet, but at least its decent.

I've browsed over my mom's old cookbooks. I've tried a few of them and re-invented some. Ive had my fair share of cuts and burns that were most of the time ignored. And I was baking like crazy during the holidays. My sister and I decided that, since we were not doing anything, why not accept orders for carrot cakes and chocolate cakes. So there I was..baking, while my business partner (my sister) was cutting the cake boxes and doing all the whining. Ive been planning on making smaller versions of those cakes and selling them by boxes. You could sell it faster and much cheaper than the big ones..I'm still coming round to realizing that idea.

I hope one day I could enroll in a culinary class and get a certificate or a degree in cooking. That would be a nice addition to my resume.

Me BACK!

Its been more than two years since i made any posts here, the usual excuse..Ive been busy.

My last year in school wasnt exactly a walk in the park. I had to concentrate more, be particular with my studies and put simply, crawl under a rock and hibernate. And my last school year was merely the tip of the iceberg. It was just a preview of what would happen withing the next six months after graduation. It was hell...and i was enjoying it. :-)

And i completely forgot my username and password in blogger sans the lack of posts. Yes, its stupidity. But then, there were those rare moments where i never claimed otherwise.

Anyway, I missed "blogging".

A quick recap of what happened to me while i was on hiatus...
I'm through with school...finally.
Ive shed a few pounds...but i gained more.
My culinary abilities is now bordering on "professional".
I'm now hell-bent on looking for a job and earning my keep.
And, i've mellowed. I'm not as crabby as i used to be..

Still single though. I shouldve been on the hunt for a eherm "partner" after the bar, but frankly, the idea did not appeal to me. Anyway, career wise, i havent yet figured out anything sooo ... i'll just leave it at that..for now.